| | i heard a news that someone is, soon, going to be living in the states.
i had the most surreal reaction. i was not suppose to care! not suppose to bother at all.
hes someone from the past. someone i have learned to get over with.
but this loneliness has got to mean something.
honestly, i was hoping we'd get to hang out again like we used to. be good friends again, and eventually, just like before, be something more than just friends. without our own hang ups this time.
guess my fantasies are really meant to be just fantasies. they're not going to become reality.
i think i'm like this just because we never had a formal closure. i deserve a closure! i deserve a freakin explanation! i deserve to know why i had to be treated like i was.
oh well, now i know how important closures are! they aren't just to make a break up formal. it is something that explains why everything had to end! it makes your moving on a real moving on!
well, theres youtube anyway. i can always see him, when i feel like missin him..
was suppose to meet up with my bestfriend today. but due to circumstances, we were not able to meet.
why now? why now, when things aren't well? when things make me feel damn miserable!
i feel like ive hit the bottom! im honestly at the lowest, most depressing point in my life!
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.
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